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So, I really don't want to go all emo on anyone, but wow things have just been getting so frustrating.

Yeah, I tend to take things more to heart than most people do. I tend to think things are offensive when a lot of other people just ignore it. A lot of times, I'm probably a hypocrite in what I do also.

But damn, I wish I didn't care about certain things so much or at least that I didn't let them rub me the wrong way. Like these NBA Championships? Yes, obviously Celtic fans are going to be obnoxious but I shouldn't pretend to be a Saint and believe that all the Lakers fans aren't going to do the same. Sports are all the same, and you'll get the extremes of it all. Just enjoy it and forget about the rest. I'm just going to be happy that the Lakers won...and forget everyone else that tries to belittle it.

Seriously, I wear my emotions on my damn sleeve. It's really frustrating because most people feel the same way I do about a lot of things except the only time I find out is when they are spilling their guts out to me. But for me? People just look at me and they know. And then I get tagged the overly-sensitive one. Sometimes also tagged, high-strung. I don't want to be. Can I please just hide how I feel for once? It's kind of taking over my life, and not in a good way :(


And wow. I don't think anyone will ever understand the kind of stress you undergo when constantly interviewing and applying for jobs. It's nice talking to people about it who are in the same boat as me; they get that its extremely stressful, especially right now when most friends have secure jobs and are off playing and really enjoying their summer. But talking to people who aren't job searching? I end up looking like an overly high strung person again.

I don't care, I don't want to care, and I'm not going to care. Ironically, I definitely used to be like this at some point in my life. The question is, when did I change and why? I couldn't have done it willingly, as I now hate what I've become.

*edit.

f this. im just going to be happy :) this makes me miss performing though. i miss the stage.

interesting question

♫ If it came down the Lakers and the Knicks in an NBA Finals playoff game...who would I root for?


I'll have to think about this one...

NBA Finals

LAKERS!!

Please win this so that I can discreetly shove it up every Boston fan I know. It would give me so much pleasure to finally tell them that they know nothing of basketball and that their extremely classless, unsportsmanlike chants are petty and disgusting.

Kobe Bryant, Derek Fisher, Lamar Odom, Pau Gasol, and Ron Artest.

KILL IT TONIGHT!

"You play for everything. There's no other chance. It's a game that you want to give everything you have, everything you have left in your body after a long run. It's a game that you have to win, and it takes you to the championship."
-Pau Gasol, #16

life after graduation

so! it's happened. i've really graduated from the big MIT. yay?


there are a lot of things i'm going to miss for sure, but the reality is that i don't think its really hit me that i'm never going back there as a student ever again. it will, i know.

well for now, i'm onto the jobhunt... i've been busy studying finance since i've gotten back to NY. which, considering how i vowed never to go into finance is definitely ironic, but sigh. gotta do what you gotta do. haha but from all the readings i've done, i can't understand why anyone would possibly consider going into ibanking. sure you make money, but sleeping 2 hours a day? working on weekends? this sounds miserable.

i guess the only thing keeping me sane so far from studying is the nba finals!!! lakers! :) and i just wanted to put a note in here, to all those jerks calling me a bandwagon jumper. i've been a fan of the lakers since the 7th grade. i became a fan because i happened to be out in CA that time for the summer and my close friend would tell me all about them all the time. i didn't feel really strongly about any team for a while (the knicks were ok, but only because allen houston happened to be on it) so i figured why not cheer on the lakers? since then, it just stuck. so, no i'm not a damn bandwagon fan. i've been a fan for the last almost 10 years. which is more than what i can say for all those fools who came to boston for college and suddenly become die hard celtics/red sox fans when you clearly don't know anything about either sport to begin with. shut up and get over it. just because its clear the celtics are going to lose doesn't give you the right to be a bitter jerk and insult and question who i am and why i support who i do.

whew ok. that got serious. haha, and fyi, that's not directed to one specific person. just towards the many who have called me a bandwagon jumper. honestly, it gets old, pick a new insult.

haha! so i saw this at game 1 and i thought it was the funniest thing ever. hahaha


Chris Rock tries to get Kobe's attention during a break in Game 1 but Kobe ignores the attention.

studying for finals makes me feel like this...

a dream is a wish you make with your heart...

it doesn't always workout the way you think it should, but it doesn't mean you should ever stop believing it could. i'm just going to have to work harder and when it happens and believe.

i know that this kind of thing is something that a lot of people don't believe in. but it gives everyone something to strive for and work for and gives us meaning. and so i'm just going to keep on believing.



i wish i didn't have to settle. i'm so headstrong that i won't be happy with anything until i get the one thing i really want. sigh...

this song on repeat:




A dream is a wish your heart makes,
When you're fast asleep,
In dreams you lose your heartaches,
Whatever you wish for, you keep.

Have faith in your dreams and someday,
Your rainbow will come smiling through,
No matter how your heart is grieving,
If you keep on believing,
The dream that you wish will come true.