:(

So, I really don't want to go all emo on anyone, but wow things have just been getting so frustrating.

Yeah, I tend to take things more to heart than most people do. I tend to think things are offensive when a lot of other people just ignore it. A lot of times, I'm probably a hypocrite in what I do also.

But damn, I wish I didn't care about certain things so much or at least that I didn't let them rub me the wrong way. Like these NBA Championships? Yes, obviously Celtic fans are going to be obnoxious but I shouldn't pretend to be a Saint and believe that all the Lakers fans aren't going to do the same. Sports are all the same, and you'll get the extremes of it all. Just enjoy it and forget about the rest. I'm just going to be happy that the Lakers won...and forget everyone else that tries to belittle it.

Seriously, I wear my emotions on my damn sleeve. It's really frustrating because most people feel the same way I do about a lot of things except the only time I find out is when they are spilling their guts out to me. But for me? People just look at me and they know. And then I get tagged the overly-sensitive one. Sometimes also tagged, high-strung. I don't want to be. Can I please just hide how I feel for once? It's kind of taking over my life, and not in a good way :(


And wow. I don't think anyone will ever understand the kind of stress you undergo when constantly interviewing and applying for jobs. It's nice talking to people about it who are in the same boat as me; they get that its extremely stressful, especially right now when most friends have secure jobs and are off playing and really enjoying their summer. But talking to people who aren't job searching? I end up looking like an overly high strung person again.

I don't care, I don't want to care, and I'm not going to care. Ironically, I definitely used to be like this at some point in my life. The question is, when did I change and why? I couldn't have done it willingly, as I now hate what I've become.

*edit.

f this. im just going to be happy :) this makes me miss performing though. i miss the stage.