people always say if you try your hardest and sacrifice everything, then that's when you know you've done enough.
am i still missing something?
marathon training has gone out the window. i got pseudo sick, and now its back to day 1 of training. awesome.
tired..and falling behind. i need to jump back up.
"Just remember in the darkest hour
Within your heart's the power
For making you
A hero too
So don't lose hope when you're forlorn
Just keep your eyes upon the skies"
-hercules
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on an unrelated note.. i want to start this back up as a baking/life blog. here was my baking for valentines day! for the seals:
the valentines day gift box included fudge marble cupcakes with decadent milk chocolate frosting and rainbow sprinkles, with white chocolate covered oreo truffles.
in other news, disneyworld again for spring break!! im actually...really excited. Two of my roommates from the Disney College Program are going down during the same week, which happened to be the best coincidence ever. I'm going down sometime in the next month so I can get recertified at Rock'n'Roller Coaster...and then get my maingate passes! yay!
class tomorrow. mit med appointment in the morning for a vaccine. ughhh. still haven't registered yet. blahh.
ps. im still obsessed with the song from the previous post
pps. i actually ran the 8 miles in the marathon training! never been so proud of myself.
Saw Disney on Ice last night...Princess Classics. If you weren't a fan of Disney, you would've hated it, but me? I absolutely loved it. Loved it so much, that it got me back on this Disney craze where I want to watch everything Disney and I want to go back there SO badly.
Watched Mulan and Hercules tonight! So amazing... so inspiring!
There's a version of Go the Distance that I actually adore...its resung by Lucas Grabeel (from HSM). Some hate it, I love it. I'm a total sucker for this kind of music.
First real day of work tomorrow. Pretty nervous... ugh. Somewhat excited...more nervous energy I think!
That's the link to my marathon training schedule. Mostly the first one is the one I plan to follow. Sara sent it to me...we're supposed to run together ..ish. The training looks really intense..I'm kind of terrified, but we'll just see how it goes. Given how badly my knee has been and that my shoulder is only just recovering...hopefully I'll be ok!
I got my schedule for Hill Holliday! Finally...I was getting worried that my paperwork had gotten lost in the mail and they decided that I didn't care enough to work there. I really hope I enjoy this internship...I've been having a lot of trouble finding an internship that really captivates me. I always end up doing shit work in the end, like getting lunch for my boss. Clearly very exciting. But Hill Holliday! They seem really cool and fun in terms of the work they get to do, and they get to work on the advertising campaigns for a lot of big names including Dunkin' Donuts. :) I'll keep updates as I start. Orientation is this Wednesday, so we'll see! I'm working there M, T, W, F 1-5:30PM. Kind of intense.
The weather in Boston still sucks. In fact, today was worse than most days. It ...downpoured. Ugh.
But the dance/video for MLK is turning together well! I think it's going to be awesome :):) We seriously just need some sunny days ...effing Boston.
So I realize I haven't actually posted anything meaningful on this in a very long time. In fact, I'm not really sure I posted anything meaningful on this blog since I've started it when I was in Disney World last spring. It's weird because I always feel like I have so much to write and so much to share, yet I can never bring myself to actually open the blog and start writing. It's not like its a hard thing to do...I'm not really sure what keeps stopping me from doing it.
ugh. I'm exhausted. Mentally and physically. My entire body hurts from going out every night (I need a serious break) and also from working out with Cai everyday. The working out part is awesome..I'm really glad I've been able to be so headstrong about it and keep it up so diligently. On the other hand, the drinking and going out part is really starting to take a toll on me. Even so, I love all the people I go out with and it just compels me to want to spend time with them. Of course that leads to all sorts of crazy nights...but hey, those are the best times.
Mentally? There's a lot going on in my mind. Although a lot of times, I get tired of having so much crap overflowing my brain that I just let it go vacant. People often think that I'm in a bad mood or being super moody..but really? My mind is actually completely blank and I'm not thinking about anything. Forget a bad mood, its just a vacant expression I leave on my face because there is actually nothing in my mind. People say, "What are you thinking about?" Haha....legit..nothing. It's actually a nice place to keep your mind when you can. But when I do have to think, its hard to keep track of everything. I'm sad, happy, depressed to the point of just sitting in my room and crying, but then so excited to be where I am. I really am a people person. I depend on people to keep me happy and without them, I just settle into this abyss of ...feeling lonely. I guess its also different from being independent. It's not that I'm depending on them for everything I do, because I am still a very indepenedent person. I just always want people around me. Is that strange? Right now, I'm alone and the loneliness is definitely kicking in.
I should really just go to bed. Tomorrow will be sunny (please boston...) and it's going to be a new day. I've been listening to this song on repeat for a while. It's the song that we will be using for our video/dance project for MLK. It's a little monotonous maybe, but I feel like there is just so much happiness and meaning on the song. I love the dance....he's so happy.
2 cups butter
24 oz. chocolate chips
4 cups flour
2 cups brown sugar
2 tsp. soda
1 tsp. salt
2 cups sugar
1 8 oz. Hershey bar (grated)
5 cups blended oatmeal
4 eggs
2 tsp. baking powder
2 tsp. vanilla
3 cups chopped nuts (your choice)
-Measure oatmeal, and blend in a blender to a fine powder. Cream the butter and both sugars. Add eggs and vanilla, mix together with flour, oatmeal, salt, baking powder, and soda. Add chocolate chips, Hershey bar, and nuts. Roll into balls, and place two inches apart on a cookie sheet. Bake for 10 minutes at 375 degrees.
-Makes 112 cookies.
